bad habits

in 2018 my internet provider began...

an "internet upgrade project"...which has provided the throttled inconvenience they so thoughtfully apologized for in advance and which was clearly the very first step towards taking full advantage of the corrupt and kleptocratic...let's say criminal...trump adminstration's destruction of net neutrality in an effort to mitigate that corporate malaise...greed...so today i got an email from the fine folks at frontier pretty much asking me how i like they way they have throttled my connection...

( i could not snip it out in its entirety so here it is in two parts ) telling me if i want a faster connection it is going to cost me...time for decisions...hindsight is startling in its clarity...there are those times when i rue going back to indiana university in 2007...it then that i found i could not actually attend that august institution without an internet connection and that was the impetus to procure a computer which was something i had resisted in a serious fashion to that point...what was deemed a necessity has turned into a bad habit ( there are doubtlessly those who consider this activity to be one of my worst..."shut the fuck up already"...those who know me realize that this is unlikely...it's a link...not a fucking demand...you clicked on it ) including the deviltry of social media which is something less than aboveboard in what it does and how it operates...buyer's remorse in corporeal form...so..will i stop using the internet? probably not...too much of life is centered there..banking...paying bills...arguing with bureaucrats...and i do keep in touch with some far flung people who are important to me through this medium...so i doubt i will vanish...then again i do have an extensive tool kit to apply to changing habitual behaviors...i am the meanest bastard in the valley in that respect...at least once i identify the habit...that is most of the challenge..i will not be houdini and escape..i will be fred and take a conscious interest in how i use this infernal machine..i do turn it off...i still read...i still think...the time seems to have come to give thought to this...and have i said that donald trump is an self-entitled self-absorbed emotional pre-teen with absolutely no concept of how to be a human being of any consequence or worth today? i meant to...once a rat fuck always a rat fuck...have i also pointed out that a surprising number of andy jackson's contemporaries felt the same way about him during his presidential tenure? there is nothing new here..it's just the first glaringly obvious example of the true soul of american politics you've seen personally...a confluence of whores sums up its history.